Open Question: lexapro and risperidone ruined my life?

I believe that risperidone and Lexapro ruined my life. Please help me. I do not know how to do. This makes my life a living hell and made a lot of things for me worse. I have increased the anxiety, suicidal thoughts and depression, but also heart murmur (trachicardia). I have never signed the hospital in the form of treatment when they take office, I am in. God, what is wrong! It has been 3 years I left the hospital, but the effect still exists.