Open Question: Anxiety, Suicidal Problems?

Import and export of children over the age of 15, and I hope I die, suicide is a sin. I was always afraid of. I always felt panic, no reason the tension, I have GAD and obsessive-compulsive disorder, at present every day in the hospital I was the supervision of a doctor to maintain. How should I do? I can not deal with it? My Documents just kept giving me meds do not have any impact on me. They tricked me, told me, but not without. I look forward to alcohol or drugs as a last resort.